Thinking can be bad for you....

I started thinking today about just what the hell I was doing. School is WAY harder than I thought it was going to be. That also might be because I've somehow been sucked into working 16 hours a week. Taking 17 credits at two different schools and three different campuses plus trying to get in time to work out, see my husband and get my house unpacked has made me a little edgy. I've been a huge bitch. But I just can't help it. I watched most of "Iron Jawed Angels" today in English class. It's an HBO movie that is based on the life of Alice Paul and the sufferage movement. Now THOSE women had a lot to deal with. Sometimes, all you need is a little perspective, right? I still feel overwhelmed, but all those feelings of dropping out and never going back have receded.

I figured out why I don't understand the current chapter that we're doing in math. It's based on a previous chapter that we didn't cover over at CCSN. I was so freaked out. Math doesn't usually freak me out like that. I actually cried about it, I was so frustrated and I was doubting myself so much that I almost talked myself out of staying in school. I then decided to review the chapter that I had missed in my previous math class. Duh. It's a little extra work, but that is expected when going from one school to another. They try to teach the same things, but they don't sit down in planning meetings with each other. CCSN omits stuff that they don't think most people will have to learn. I even remember my Calc II teacher telling me that they don't even teach that chapter in Calc III. Well, I'm taking Calc III at a university that DID teach that chapter. It's all screwed up. I'm going to study that damn chapter now.